There are certain moments in your life when you come to the realization of just how lucky you are.  Today was one of those moments for me.  I am lucky to have two precious and healthy children I can love and kiss on each and everyday.  There are those in the world that long to have that luxury and privilege.   

I have some very dear friends who have been on the adoption journey for over 2.5 years.  They have had many ups and downs along the way and today was just another one of those battles that they must fight and endure.  They are fighting to love on their daughter while I am lucky enough to snuggle mine daily.  I am luckier than I deserve.

After finding out this disappointing news from my friend my son woke up and I just clung to him.  I sat and nursed him in the dark and all sorts of thoughts ran through my head.  I thought of dear Bella and her precious laughter and catch phrase, "Eat up a Toe" and how difficult her death was.  I thought of sweet Simo who bounced back from deaths door only to die too young when his house collapsed.  I thought of our hundred or so children at the hostel who have lost countless family members in their short lives.  I thought of all those families I know who have tried in earnest to have children, but for whatever reason have not been able to.  I thought of just how lucky I am to have two healthy children to love on each and everyday.  This luck I will cling to as I go to bed for the evening and look forward to their sweet hugs and snuggles in the morning.